Wish I Had More Faith!

I’ve been thinking a lot about FAITH lately. I suppose I’ve been berating myself because surrender and relaxed-trust don’t seem to flow effortlessly from me right now.

Hmmm. As I started to write this new blog, a funny (as in “interesting”) thing just happened. I began with a different plan, but then…I had an “Aha!-message” hit me over the head. (Gently, of course!) Here’s the gist of it: Joan, trusting and surrendering yourself and your situation to God rarely, if ever, comes without some angst or pain. Faith is a choice in the midst of confusion and difficulty. And it usually means some kind of spiritual “tug of war.” (Come to think of it, Henry Blackaby and Claude King called it “crisis of faith” in their well-read workbook, Experiencing God.)

Okay, so maybe I’ll let myself off the guilt-hook and just keep trusting God “imperfectly.”

Lord, I don’t have it all to give you, ‘cuz I don’t have nearly the faith, strength, energy, understanding or courage I think I need in order to do it better. So, here’s what I have. Take my frayed faith. I trust You with it–and me.

What’s your “tug of war”?